Or something cutely clever sounding to preface a personal journal. For those only interested in what this means for what I'm doing in plush and stuff, I'll head this journal with that. I'm about half done with that chocobo plush, and yes I'm recording everything from reference imagery and rough sketching to the finished plush. I mean for it to show how I go about building a plush from scratch, hopefully showing and telling my process will help others. I'm working right now on a quarter-scale Tavipony for my special somepony as a gift and a quarterhorse Rainbow Dash as a commish. After that, I've got lined up a Flutterbat and another Octavia, if the customers are still interested. I'm also announcing here officially that I'm now offering princess quarterscales for commission!
If anyone wants to hire me for one, I'll make ya a tiny Tia or lil' Luna. Or that Cadance pony I guess - ,- So I'll make anypony in the quarter-scale now. If you're interested, drop me a note for pricing and such. Tia would be about 20 inches tall, and Luna 17-ish.
Now, the personal part of this personal journal XD For the people asking "what's up Stitchypony?" who mean "why are you taking so long to get plush things done, and why do you keep making other things besides the pony I've paid for?" or somesuch. Idunno, maybe I just want to write a little bit, just get what I've been going through down in text form maybe both so people can understand the delays I've been having for so long and maybe so I can just get it out.
I guess I'll give you a lil' background on who I am, or at least how I grew up. It'll help understand a bit what's happening with me later on. Yes, this'll be a little bit of a read. My name is Robby. You might know that if you've stuck around long enough, but if you're a new watcher who pays attention to these I really don't use my real name here anymore. Long life story short, most of my life my mom's had to be both mom and dad to me and my brother because my dad didn't want to be a dad, and hurt us (us being my mother, my brother, and myself) in many ways to make sure the message got across. It really hasn't been easy on her and it's made getting by overall pretty hard. Now to more recent times, where a lot of things all happened at once.
Mom had some medical troubles, a lot stress induced. We didn't have insurance, the state denied us any help, and so we were left in a spot of trouble. We tried to sell the house we'd built together from the ground up, which was a sort of insurance policy if bad stuff was happening. According to a few changes in policy when another bank bought the bank she'd originally got the mortgage through, no one could get a loan to buy the house because of how the heating system was set up. I had to drop out of college because we couldn't afford it anymore, and both our vehicles were mysteriously (see: stalky father) having constant troubles. I was working towards a degree in nursing where I'd be able to help people. It'd always been what I wanted to do with my life, because I've had so many people help me and my mother. I wanted to give back, or make a difference, or something silly like that. And so all in one year we lost our wonderful home, I lost my future career, mom was losing her health, and we were left with almost nothing. The only things we could keep were what would fit in my car and mum's minivan which was breaking down and almost didn't make the thousand mile trip to our destination. Which was my grandma's garage. So does that mean we were homeless? I don't know.
The past year has been a battle to recover from that. We've had to move a few times since, for a few different reasons each time. Each one has kind of been a move up, but that's why I've had that "emergency commissions" thing I did a while back and such. I've taken over paying almost all bills and expenses with my plush job, which has been why I've been having such a hard time catching up on my big pony commission list, and why I need small pony commissions. I'm pretty sure if I'm working on smaller ponies, they'll give me time to work on bigger ones because they're so much faster to build, meaning I can support my family and also get that backlog cleared up. If I could just get all those commissions done, I'd actually be set pretty much XD I've got so many people waiting to place orders for big ponies, and that'd put me in a far better place. But as is, I'm not getting a lot of interest in my quarterhorses and I've been greatly worried lately if I'll be able to keep caught up on the bills. I've worked myself crazy hard lately, wake-to-sleep some days sometimes for weeks solid... though yes, if you pay attention to my Tumbly I did take a few breaks over the past week or so to play some Final Fantasy 8 with my brother. Gotta make time for family. Or somesuch. Just so you all know who've commissioned me, I am dedicated to getting you your plushies.
They will be made, I'm just struggling with making them and the little ponies that are keeping me in a home... or trailer park anyway.
Some days it just doesn't feel possible, like the weight of everything I've taken on is going to crush me under this gradually losing battle. I'm lucky to have a family who supports me in what I do, even when they weren't sure at first about this whole art crafty thing. And I have a beautiful, smart, sweet girlfriend who always knows just what to say to convince me I can do it when I'm feeling down. And I have a few friends I've met through this job that I really do love that keep me going too, though I haven't had a lot of time lately to talk. I'm still worried there's going to be something that'll be the one more thing that'll make this all impossible though. I haven't had the best luck lately y'know.
So it's because of all... that, that I've been slow at getting commissions done for the past year, the past year that's pretty much turned my hobby into a real job. I'd love to have seen what DBSA would have been under more stable circumstances. Maybe this is all firing and forging it into something that'll last instead. All these experiences have been terribly depressing, and some days I really wanted to just give up, but they've also sobered me up to reality a lot. I'm a lot less materialistic now, and I have quite a bit of a firmer grasp on what's important and what to expect from the real world. While I don't have a college degree, or a dream home anymore, or a big happy family, or friends close enough to visit, or a girlfriend close enough to visit, or a career where I help people, or a reliable income, or healthcare, or dental care, or a lot of possessions, or any pets I could keep, or furniture, or even a real bed... Yes, I complain sometimes
What I do have is hope for the future. When one hits bottom, they can only go up, yes? And while things could prolly be worse, I think they'll be getting better if I work hard enough.
So now that I've talked about boring old me and why I'm a slow-plushing dumbdumb, let's talk about what I'd like to do with Double Backstitch Arts. Recently I've talked with Trick Shot (WilshireWolf) and TrickyPromise (Latent Promise x Trick Shot) is no more. Trick's actually hooked up with Dubby now, making the cute lil' ship DoubleTrickStitch ^ ,^ Promisepony is retiring now, I guess. For good this time. I feel Dubby's becoming a bit more me anyway. I made Promise off of who I was years ago, which isn't the me now. Dubby's a bit of who I'd like to be. Far more energetic and optimistic. Now why's this important? Well I've been planning a comic series for a while now, a sort of askpony sort of deal. Distract Dubby or something like that. I've been fleshing out Backstitch as a character, I've been working on her life story, and on the characters in her world. I'd like to make the askblog into a conduit for her story. I've been practicing my drawing lately a lot in hopes of making it a reality. Also, I'd like to open drawn commissions again when I have the time. Flex them art muscles
And relating to that chicobo I'm working on, I'm thinking about making a video series, maybe a monthly or every-other-monthly thing where I make a plush from the ground up. Either one I want to work on myself, or maybe something I could have y'all vote on. Idunno, I have a lot of ideas I'd love to actually make real, I just wish I had more time.
So yah, TL;DR:
My life's a bit of a mess and that's why my output's been a mess lately. I have a lot of ideas I'll prolly never go anywhere with, that chicobo is actually getting made though so watch out for that, and I'm still working hard at everything else too. Princesses are now commissionable. Peace.
(That's honestly the first time I've ever ended something with that word like that XD If there's anything you want to discuss, as always the comments are a welcome conversational area.)